SLow sappylove songs

make ya want to kiss someone...
especially if you all ready wanted to sort of.
i so wanted to kiss Bethany today
If i i wasn't thinking about Cory i so would have.
me and Bethany were siting on the couch me sort of working her sort of thinking about sleeping and i couldn't help but look into her beautiful brown eyes (well brown a lot, they sort of change, today they were brown with green around the outside). Then she she started to play this 50 sounding love song she looked off into my eyes and i looked over into hers and then i jumped you know like a little flinch like when two guys are about to fight. i had to do something to break that moment then i told her she needed to play something else that i didn't like that style right now. its a jerk move but i don't want any drama. i could see my self with her sometimes but i shake that thought to the curve. shes not interested plus i have the "bros before Girls" thing to live up to. i respect Cory and he has the same for me i wouldn't want to hurt that. plus shes never been kissed so if i would of slipped and planted my lips on hers, even if she liked, it it would of caused more drama than i can deal with now...

but on a plus note and what i really wanted to blog about tonight was a new friend i made. shes cute as pie, home schooled but that's OK i guess. its to early to give her a name in the drama of my life but she is cute. really just throwing this out there and not being pessimistic just honest i don't see this going any were ether but she is super cute. we watched two episodes of Decster (or how ever its spelled) and i had my arm around her but she leaned in and rested on my chest there may of been a pillow but ether way this notion at the private college i go to is semi-rear. im thinking about doing ball room (not a heterosexual thing to do in the south)
just told my Ra i blog as a stress relief because I'm to fat to run lol
but yeah she ball rooms but i was thinking about it before but that was kind on icing on the cake.
Just had a chat with my Ra about all the reasons i blog little uncomfortable but OK told him i blog for stress but i don't just blog bad stuff any more but good thanks to God for good stuff happening and a comment from a stranger that told me to be more positive. told him i was blogging out of habit and because i hung out with a cute girl last night i didn't want any more prodding questions. i have a big paper to do so blows... didn't know about it till today ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
that's stress and its a complicated paper
but yeah that chick is cool
well i got a heave chest after my RA questions and light hands
so ill catcha ya cool cats later.